Life Is But A Dream
Recently I’ve been dream journaling. It’s one of the exercises I’m using to work into becoming a lucid dreamer. I’ve had semi-lucid dreams in the past, but I have never ascended to the point of regularly having the experience. My goal in lucid dreaming is, in essence, to be able to observe and communicate in a way with my subconscious. In this new goal I keep a journal and a pen at my bedside, and write down my sleeping dreams when they are still fresh in my mind.
In no small part due to this new habit, my dreams have become more vivid and memorable lately. Not just visually or from a sensory perspective, but the emotions I experience during a dream sequence will feel more intense. I retain these sequences to memory much more easily than I once did.
Another recent goal of mine is elevating my self concept in a few areas of my life. I recently was able to identify some unhelpful beliefs within myself about things like money, relationships, and career that have caused undesirable circumstances in the past. These are things that go back to my childhood. As I have most of the specific things I want, my manifesting focus as of late has been “going general,” working on my concept of self and my relationship with different aspects of my life.
What can I say? I am human. In this manifesting blog, I fully intend to share both my successes and my opportunities to improve.
That said, the reason I tell you about this, both my dreams and my self-concept work, is not for mundane updates about my life. It is because these two practices combined to display a perfect demonstration of how the law really works.
During this time, I had two unpleasant dreams, two nights in a row.
In the first, I had an argument with my partner. I got upset at something trivial, we argued over text message, I blocked him, and he blocked me back. I was left without a way to contact him, and I was incredibly sad and stressed.
In reality, he and I are both very good at communicating. We rarely get upset at each other. When we do, we both focus on saying our piece and solving the problem. We each advocate for our needs, but also take responsibility for our own feelings and reactions. It’s actually an incredibly healthy relationship.
Because of this, I woke up from the dream confused and upset, caught in a place of knowing it was only a dream and clinging to the experience, wanting to return to my dream just to go back and fix it. As the freshness of the emotions faded, I was less disturbed but still confused.
The second dream, the next night, was about a different SP, someone I was manifesting into my life. In this dream, he and I were somewhere with many other people. In the dream I could tell there was something between us, but he seemed to only be giving his attention to other women around me. I felt a little hurt, but didn’t really have any big reaction. Even in my dream, as things were happening, I was affirming the behaviors I wanted to see, instead of what was in front of me.
Having these two dreams one right after the other was actually somewhat upsetting to me. I’d been working on my self concept as well as my specific desire work, and yet my subconscious was showing me the opposite in my dreams. I was especially unimpressed with the second dream, as it was an SP I was currently manifesting.
I sat with these dreams for a while, wondering why my subconscious might be showing me this. Then, finally, I understood.
These dreams had nothing to do with my partner or my SP. The people in my dreams had absolutely nothing to do with the entire point of those dreams. They were just faces to put on the reflection. The dreams were about my old self concept.
As I replaced my old self concept with the new, my dreams reflected to me my purging old concept of self: of not being chosen, of not being worthy of the people I want, and of all the insecurities I once felt when I became invested in someone. It was my subconscious showing me the old story as if to say, “you sure you don’t want this anymore?”
And I breathed a sigh of relief, because I knew that it really had nothing to do with my specific people. My subconscious just chose them because they represented romantic attachment to me. My old self concept was struggling to stick around, and just showed me imaginary circumstances that represented that inner truth.
It was this reflection on my sleeping dreams that made it really click for me how my waking experience actually works, and just how important concept of self really is.
The waking world is no different from this sleeping experience. The people and experiences in our lives are not separate from us; they are a reflection of our inner world. Just like my dream experiences had nothing to do with my partner or my SP and absolutely everything to do with my concept of self, so it is in waking. Your specific circumstances are so, so, so intimately tied to the general beliefs you have about yourself and the various greater areas of your life. Like a dream, the people and circumstances in your life are only reflecting the story you tell yourself about your life.
I persisted in my self-concept work, and those types of dreams went away. In fact, a couple weeks later, I even received a dream of my SP unexpectedly proposing to me. Truly a stark difference in a fairly short period of time. With all things in the law, persistence is everything.
In this experience of momentary discomfort, I found a new appreciation for self-concept, which like many others I once disregarded as unimportant in comparison to specific manifestations. In sharing this story, I hope you will, too.
Remember that your subconscious knows your truth. Remember that your world is a reflection of your beliefs. Remember that you reflect not what you want, but who you are.
Remember that life is but a dream.
